Monday, March 31, 2008

7 Random Facts About ME!!!

My friend Jenn tagged me to do this.(thanks Jenn!!! What a cute idea!)
These are 7 things about me...maybe you know them, maybe you don't!

1. I was adopted

family is everything

2.I love to play in my flower garden

3. I work as a correspondent at the Standard-Examiner. (I love writing and photography)


4. In August I will have been married for 6 years

5. I am allergic to being pregnant!!!! (honestly I am)

6. I lived in the same house for 23 years...until I got married. (My parents still live there!!)

7. I have 2 dogs "Lewis and Clark"

I tag Kimberly, Mimi, Maryanne and Jon...and anyone else reading this!!!!

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Worst Day EVER!

We got up early this morning to get ready for church. I quickly noticed that Jonah was having some very labored breathing. I called his pediatrician and we made an appointment for him to be seen. Because Layton had to work tonight, I took both boys with me, which is always an adventure. I just had no idea how much of an adventure it would be.

The doctor looked at Jonah and said the prolonged cough could be due to Asthma, but said I just need to watch him.

We got to the car, and Jonah began to cry. I strapped him into his seat and handed him my keys to play with while I put Logan in the car and found something else in the car for him to play with. I closed the van door because it was snowing and very cold. I took Logan by the hand and walked towards the other van door. I put my hand on the door handle and then I heard an ominous sound...the double beep of my doors locking. Jonah hit the door lock on my alarm on the key chain of my keys!!! Panicked, I pulled the handle, still expecting the door to open. It did not.
I grabbed Logan and ran to our doctor's office. I had them call security and ran back out to my car to wait. It felt like an hour before security got there, even though I am sure it was only a few minutes. They told me they have no way to get into locked cars. They called Ogden Police Department, who responded, but they also had no way to open a locked door. Both told me their departments chose not to have these devises because they are a liability! HELLO, MY CHILD IS LOCKED IN THE CAR!! GET HIM OUT OF THERE! We ended up having to wait for 40 minutes for Layton to drive the spare set of keys to me!!!! Logan got to sit in the police car, which made his day, not mine.
By the time Layton got there, my van was surrounded by police officers, security guards...and folks who were interested to see who is stupid enough to lock her child in her car.
So humiliating!

Jonah is 1

I honestly can't believe that it has been a year! My sweet baby Jonah just turned a year old!! It seems like I was just 10 months pregnant. He is such a sweet little boy. We had a party on Saturday. We went to the treehouse museum, it was such a blast. Logan and Jonah were in heaven! Then we went to our house and had chili and birthday cake!

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Kids are cute

Last night as I was putting Logan to bed, I gave him a kiss and said, "I love you honey." He said "Hey, momma....I feel the Holy Ghost." I was kind of suprised (after all...he's not even 3 yet) So I said to him, "How do you know it's the holy ghost?" He looked at me and said, "Because I'm happy momma!" How cute is that?

Also because my mom happened to mention that I don't tell enough stories about Jonah (he doesn't really he doesn't say cute things like that yet!) I am happy to report that he is standing in his bed and walking around the cute.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008


I drove past the movie theaters the other day (the old ones in Riverdale that are now closed) and I noticed several weeks ago that the owners had started putting up a new inspirational message every week. In essence the sign said 'The only thing I know about happiness is that you have to find your own." It really felt like the sign was talking to me! I have had a rough couple of weeks and have joked to some friends that sometimes I feel like I am being punked by God; but really, I have an amazing life. I have a family (extended) that is amazing. I have the best parents a girl could ever hope for. I have a sweet grandma, that at the age of 90 would do anything for any of her kids or grandkids. I have an awesome husband and 2 darling little kids...why on earth would I have anything to complain about? After we moved into our cute home in Clearfield, I was so happy to have a real home that was mine, (that wasn't "moveable"). I never imagined the money pit that we had just bought into called home ownership. When the basement flooded for the first time, I cried. When it happened the second time, I was mad! Then, when the wall started to bubble out like a giant wall tumor...I knew we were in big trouble. We had to tear up everything in our cute basement. Then, we found black mold, so we had to tear out more. It was just pathetic to look at. We decided to "fix it right" so we installed a drain system, which was spendy...but we felt like it was the right thing to do. During all of this time, I never once said "I am sure a lucky girl," even though I am. When my uncle Drew framed everything in for us agreed to do a lot of the work for free...I did think "Wow, how nice of him!" But I didn't stop to think how lucky I am to have family like that! What a blessing they are in our lives!!! When the sewer line in our back yard broke, and we had a fountain of sorts every time we flushed the toilet, I never thought to myself "Wow, I am lucky." But today when I realized the drain system had prevented the raw sewage from coming in our house...and it just needs to be cleaned...and that's free for the first year...I did say "Wow, we are lucky!" I was talking to my Aunt at a family party on Sunday about how your life is what you choose. If you choose to see the good in things, happiness will find you. If you choose to be negative, sadness will surely follow. I have decided, there is nothing so important that I need to make sadness appear in my life. If Happiness is where you find it...I choose to find it right here!

Sunday, March 23, 2008


I was just talking to one of my good friends Traci. She was telling me that today, the death tole from the war reached the number 4,000. That's American soldiers dead. 4,000. It's really amazing to think about. Imagining that each of those soldiers had a spouse or loved one and parents, we're looking at approximately 12,000 people affected. That's not taking into account those children who are left without a parent. It's time. It's time to be done there. What exactly are we accomplishing now? Is it something that is worth the sacrifice of 4,000 of our own? I don't think that it is! I know September 11 was terrible; but what are we doing now? What is this all for? When will it be done? According to CNN's website ( lost 2,752 people that day in the twin towers. We have lost 4,000 more thanks to this war!
Traci was not completely accurate with her numbers. There are 3,991 confirmed deaths ( These are soldiers that are confirmed to be dead. Currently there are 8 pending deaths, which cannot be confirmed. All of these numbers are for Operation Iraqi freedom, and for US soldiers.

We have lost 483 soldiers in Operation Continuing Freedom.
We are looking at a total of many more than 4,000. What about soldiers from other countries? What about innocent by-standers and those who are being killed? Well more than 4,000! A total of 29,395 American soldiers have been wounded. (
I don't want this war. I think we entered into the war based on half-truths and lies, and I think we need to be honest enough to admit that to ourselves. This is not our war to fight, it never was. Our economy is failing, instead of withdrawing troops and investing those BILLIONS of dollars on our struggling economy, let's buy tanks and battle ships and blow things up!!! As of January, $416 billion has been spent on this war! (
In Rwanda, the cost to build and run a 6 building orphanage is $48,000. That includes the yearly salary for teachers. Using the money we have spent on this war, we could have built 8.5 MILLION orphanages in Africa!!! (read why I know this, in an article I wrote

Currently there are 73.7 million children in the US. The most recent figures available from the U.S. Department of Education show that in 2000 the average tuition for private elementary schools nationwide was $3,267. At this rate, we could send each student under the age of 18 in America to private school for 1.74 years.

We need to fund education, we need to take care of our elderly and poor, and we need to stop this war. We need to quit the the squandering of billions of dollars.
Why don't we do something with our money that matters!

I Love Easter!!!

This is the first year that Logan has really gotten what is going on during Easter! We had so much fun decorating Easter Eggs. Then he had to call everyone to let them know that the Easter Bunny came!!! SO fun!

Logan Refused to use the metal gadget to color the eggs, he kept dipping his fingers in the dye.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

The Highlight of My Week

As a correspondent for the Standard-Examiner, I rarely hear back from people I have written about who think that I am doing a great job; I always hear back when I make a mistake etc. That is just part of the job. I must say, some of the feedback that I have gotten on one of my recent stories has been very nice.
This is the link to the original story
The founder of Small Smiles called me and said that because of our story, They are now moving their program into Ogden and Weber Counties....thousands of kids will be affected (YAY!) In addition, word somehow got to Idaho...the entire state of Idaho will now join on. (double yay!)

If that wasn't wonderful enough, The paper published a letter to the editor about my story (how rad is that?) Here is the link to that

Friday, March 21, 2008

A Riddle

What's worse than sick kids and a fever of 101? Raw sewage in your back yard!!! We had noticed a puddling of water where the dogs had dug in our back yard. My parents brought the truck over early this morning so that we could go get a load of dirt and smooth things out etc. We happened to go outside when someone was in the bathroom. When they flushed, we were treated to a sewage fountain of sorts. The dogs ended up being locked in the shed most of the afternoon while Rescue Rooter tried to fix it ($600 to snake it out, and we'll now have to pay an additional $2,600 to replace the collapsed portion of pipe, so much for Disneyland!)
Anyways, never say "It can't get any worse!" That really borders a dare, doesn't it?
Even worse than the raw sewage in the back yard (ok, not quite) is the fact that we are going to have to get rid of our beautiful 70 year old elm in our yard. It is so beautiful, and one of the reasons that I bought the house!!!!

Yummy Fruit Salsa

This has been a hard week for us. Logan and Jonah have had terrible fevers and these terrible cold/flu symptoms. Now, luckily they are better. I however, am not. I started with a fever of 101 tonight and I have the same garbage they had. In this light, I would just like to say I AM READY FOR SPRING!!!! With this in mind, I thought I would share one of my favorite recipes, my ever-so-secret fruit salsa.


Fruit Salsa
2 cups chopped fresh cantelope
6 green onions, chopped
3 kiwifruit, peeled and finely chopped
1 medium navel orange, peeled and finely chopped
1 medium sweet yellow pepper, chopped
1 medium sweet red pepper, chopped
1 can (8 oz.) crushed, unsweetened pineapple (drained)
2 jalepeno peppers chopped very finely (I only use 1 and it is still pretty spicy)

combine all ingredients:

Just prior to serving add:
16 oz. of finely chopped fresh strawberries

Serve with cinnamon Tortilla chips


Cinnamon Tortilla Chips
10 flour tortillas (8 inches)
1/4 cup butter, melted
1/3 cup sugar
2 tsp. ground cinnamon

Combine sugar and cinnamon.
Brush tortillas with butter and sprinkle with cinnamon sugar. Using a pizza cutter, cut the tortilla into 8 wedges. Place on ungreased baking sheets. Bake at 350 degrees for 10-14 minutes, until they are crispy.

One serving is equal to 1/2 c. salsa and 5 chips. equals 170 calories, 5 grams fat, (2 g. saturated fat) 8 mg. cholesterol, 189 mg sodium, 29 grams carbohydrate, 2 grams fiber, 4 grams protein.
3 points.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Something I really love!

Just over a month ago, one of my really good friends told me about My Girlfriend's Kitchen (thanks Misty!!!) Her sister works there and she told me the food was amazing. I went in there not really sure what to expect. When I got there, I found tons of fresh, delicious, homemade recipes all set up so basically, I assemble them in foil pans and either take them home and cook them or freeze them. So I have these amazing dinners that are ready at a moments notice. I usually get 6 meals which is about $60. But if you think of all of the extra items you buy when you go to the store, or the amount that you would pay for the supplies for 6 meals, I think it's a deal, especailly for the convenience factor. Not only that, but I don't have any mess to clean up, they serve cookies and it's like hanging out at a friends house! (and I love that I don't have to do the dishes, did I mention that?) Also, the nutritional info is right on the cooking instructions. Most are very, very healthy and there is the option of whole grain pastas and brown rice if you request it in advance!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Dirty Mess

One of my favorite things is to go dig around in my flower garden. It's fun time for both Logan and I, because I get to play in the dirt and he gets to play with his toys and bikes. During the last week or so I have planted about 7 flats of flowers and a few flats of veggies. I made a goal this year to not buy any of my plants pregrown. Today, I decided to start about a dozen gallon sized flowers and cabbage. I had just planted everything and I walked over to carry all of the plants to the porch leaving the hose on (it was a matter of seconds!!!!) I walked around the corner to find Logan holding the water straight up, the water gushed all over him. He laughed and said, "The water is getting me!!!! I said, "Hey, it's too cold! Now we have to go inside!" That was followed by screaming and a temper tantrum. He ran away and got into the car. (he's fast) I get to the door and he hits the automatic lock button. (I hear him say through the window "Logan's being naughty") So I go into the house to get the keys for the van, I walk outside and there he is standing in the center of 6 pots he has dumped all over the ground....he then begins to jump in the dirt..So basically he was a little naughty mud monster! I picked him up and he gave me the "I'm the cutest boy in the world" look. Then he said, "I'm sorry mommy, I made a mistake." HOW CUTE IS THAT? I just couldn't get mad!

Co Op

So I recently found out about this from one of my friends at work. I think it's a great idea because it supports local businesses and local farmers. It's a great idea to help our local economy. Basically you buy a share to the co-op and get tons of veggies and fresh meat for really cheap. It's fresher because it doesn't sit in a store, and Farmers actually get paid MORE than they do from Walmarts and the like. Also this is for anyone. There are no restrictions in joining. Check it out

Sick Kids

Logan and Jonah are both sick. While grandma was babysitting last night, Jonah came down with the garbage and starting to throw up. The average temperature here is 101.8 (and that is taking into account mine is 98.2) Most of last night was spent in a recliner, holding two little sick munchkins. Logan kept saying "Don't hold my brother, that's not a good idea." and "Take care of Logan! No Jonah!" *sigh* I am so glad for the beginning of spring!!! (which is today!!!!! YAY!) We have had our share of sickness here this winter, that is for sure!!!!!!!

Monday, March 17, 2008

Life Makes Me Happy

We were outside playing today (ok, Logan was playing and I was pulling weeds in my flower bed...YAY SPRING!!!) He sat down next to me and said "Momma, you're my best friend." I thought, ' doesn't really get better than this.' Just then, the mail lady walked up and he said "Hey,'re my best friend."
Wow, he is a cute little monkey, but I must admit, my ego was hurt a little, lol!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Family Stuff

So Logan woke up this morning with a blazing fever, after a very long day we found out that he has an ear infection (long day meaning time spent at the pediatrician's office!) So I was just sitting here at my parents house and I realized that my whole extended family is the best. My parents are rad, my husband is the best, and my kids are so cute! I just couldn't be luckier! (even with a sick munchkin)

Thursday, March 13, 2008

A Ray of Sunshine

I just thought I would share something that happened today. I was sitting in my office trying to get a little work done before I rushed off to the gym. I had been working for just a couple of minutes when I felt a little presence standing quietly next to me. I looked down and there was my sweet boy Logan standing there watching me intently. I looked at him, frustrated because his Daddy was supposed to be watching him so that I could get some work done.
"Is there something that you need love," I asked in as patient of a voice as I could muster. He looked at me with his big beautiful eyes and just nodded.
"What is it?" I asked, beginning to lose patience.
"I...I..I," he stuttered, "I think you're boo-ful," he said finally.
"Oh, honey," I said and I gave him a hug, feeling guilty for my impatience a moment earlier. He stood there watching me still. I bent over and said, "Is there something else that you need?" He nodded and stood there staring at me.
"What is it?" I asked him.
"I just love you very much," he said.
I smiled and said, "I love you too."
Satisfied with himself he said, "Ok mom, I'm done with my business," and walked slowly up the stairs.
I ran up the stairs and we played and laughed for awhile. What a blessing! What a great reminder of what my business really is!

Why are people mean? (soapbox)

I have noticed a trend lately. For some reason people seem to think that it is enjoyable to be rude, unkind and generally mean. I don't know when this happened exactly, but I do know that I am sick of it. I am sick of teenagers joking around with their friends by saying things like "nerd, dork, or fag." I am sick of people's lack of manners. I was speaking with one of my really good friends today and she related how certain "friends" of hers were making fun of her. She is one of the nicest, kindest people that I know. She said to me "It's ok, they just hurt my feelings." It's not ok though! It made me wonder, "Why would anyone be mean to her?" Then I started to think about why anyone is ever mean to anyone else. Is it jealousy, insecurity, or the fact that they are just a nasty person? It's hard to say.
We need to realize that our culture is becoming a culture of nit-wits. Many americans are too stupid to spell or use proper grammar (I blame text messaging); they are too unrefined to have proper manners; and too rude to treat people kindly.
I made a goal for myself to be a little kinder. We all need to learn to be good friends, parents, children, and even acquaintences. When it comes down to it, how we treat others is all that really matters!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

I Offer You Peace

So this was basically therapy for myself to help me get through the pain of my nephew committing suicide. I thought that I would post this incase there is someone out there that it can help.

I miss my nephew so much it hurts. I think of him every day as I bend over to kiss my young boys on the head. I think of his smile as I whisper I love you in their little ears. I remember his laugh when I tickle them and they giggle happily.
It wasn’t long ago that we splashed in the lake, kayaking and laughing like there was no tomorrow. It is one of the happiest family reunions we have attended, and a memory that I cherish. Tomorrow came for me, but not for my nephew. More than a year ago, my nephew, a bright young man with a contagious smile and generous spirit, committed suicide. I miss him. There is a pain that comes with losing a loved one to suicide that is indescribable.
My nephew DJ was 14 years old when he committed suicide. He would have been 16 this month. He would be dating and driving, and causing his parents a little teenage grief. But his life, like so many others, was cut short in a split second. One bad decision, was all that it took to end the life of my sweet nephew.
Now our entire family is left to wonder. We ask ourselves so many unanswered questions.
Why did he do it? I don’t know. I don’t think that anyone will ever know for sure, except for him.
I have come to the realization that he must have been in such a dark and terrible place. The pain must have just been unbearable. I don’t know what that pain was, though I wish I did. I don’t know what sorrows lay heavy on his heart, though I wish I could have eased that burden. There is so much regret and pain. So many things “I should have said” or “I should have done”. I will live with that for the rest of my life.
Will he go to hell? No, He won’t.
I know our God is a merciful God, a just God, a kind and a loving God. He is also a father who has lost a son. Would a merciful, loving, kind father abandon a child who has made a mistake? I tell you no.
Mind you, this was the most monumental mistake he made in his entire life.
One mistake, no matter the enormity, does not erase a lifetime of kindness, of good, of love. I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that my father in heaven has forgiven my nephew and has accepted him into his loving arms. I have felt witness of this. He is ok.
I know that he is on the other side, that he understands the gravity of what he has done. Would take it back if he could? I know that he would. I am certain that he feels the same agony in his soul. I know that he must be sorrowful and miss our family as much as we miss him. I know that he’s cheering for us, hoping that we’ll all live in a way that we’ll be able to be together again as a family.
Will I get to see him again? I know that I will.
I have spent much time in prayer asking for answers and much time in researching. There is not much written on the topic of suicide. People don’t often speak of it. It’s not something that is pretty or comfortable to talk about. It is much easier to cover it up and pretend it’s not there, but this is a growing epidemic.
According to the National Center For Health Statistics, 32, 637 people committed suicide in the US in 2005.
There have been more than 5 million suicide deaths worldwide in this new century alone reports the World Health Organization. This is more than number of deaths caused by war and homicide combined.
The organization estimates there are 10-20 times more suicide attempts than deaths.
There is an added pain for those of us who have lost loved ones to suicide. Part of the grieving process is being able to talk about the ones that we love that have passed on. When someone dies of a disease or terminal condition, you read their cause of death in the newspaper. People talk about it. There is closure. When a loved one dies as a result of suicide, it becomes a dark secret that many family members feel they must hide.
“I love my nephew. I ache that he is gone. He committed suicide,” there is healing in that.
How can we prevent suicide? We need to let our sons and our daughters know that it is ok to feel, it is ok to cry. Sons need not be ashamed of their emotions. It is okay to cry, that is healthy. It is okay to have sorrow. Life is full of sorrow, of disappointment. It is also full of joy, of happiness, of peace and love. Things may be bad now, but it will get better.
We need to communicate with our children. We need to open a dialogue with them while they are still young. So when they are in the darkest, deepest most awful place in their life, they have a place to turn.
We need to teach our children about the miracle of forgiveness; the amazing gift of the atonement, through which we can all be saved. They need to understand that there is always hope, the Lord will always love them, and they can find forgiveness for their sins through the gift of repentance.
All is not lost, there is hope. Satan wants us to believe that we are unworthy to use the atonement, that we are too far gone, that there is no hope. There is nothing further from the truth. Jesus died for all of us. There are none so far gone that our savior can’t reach.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I am Grateful for a Testimony

I was recently talking to my brother-in-law. He is a really great guy, but some where along in his experiences of life, he lost his testimony. He told me he can't remember what a testimony meeting is like and the extent of his would be "I'm here." That got me thinking about all of the blessings that I have in my life. I am so thankful for the sweet small spirit that has born witness in my heart to the truthfulness of the gospel. It's amazing, when you have seems like such a small tender thing, the promptings of the spirit. When it's missing, the void it leaves behind is huge. It is all encompassing, it takes the light and blends it with the dark, and makes decisions (the right from wrong kind) difficult. I am thankful that, in my life, I have the tender whisperings of the spirit. I love my father in heaven and I am so grateful for his gifts in my life!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Random Ramblings

*****WARNING>>>>> I AM ON MY SOAP BOX ON THIS ONE!!!******(politically based)

Why am I a Democrat? Well, that's actually pretty easy, I feel like the Democrats have more of my priorities in mind...Education, Health care, etc. Why do I favor Barrack Obama over Hillary Clinton, that also is pretty easy! I think Hillary has proven herself to be a liar. She has proven that she will say anything or do anything to accomplish what she wants. I think she is completely unethical! Let's look at the time that she did spend in the White House! Both she and Bill had scandals while living there...Do we really want a Clinton (let alone both of them!!!) in the White House again? I can tell you I don't! I think Hillary Clinton has enough haters across America that she is the only shot that John McCain has!!!
This just in...John McCain is endorsing Hillary for the Democratic nomination!!!! (kidding)

This brings me to another point, I am really annoyed with all of the Mormons out there who think that the only ones of us who are getting into the Celestial Kingdom are those of us who are Republican and voted for Mitt Romney. People who are going to vote, need to be aware of the issues. They need to know what their candidate stands for, anything else is irresponsible and foolish. For example, did you know that Mitt Romney favors Tax cuts for the highest tax bracket because "they are the ones with money to spend." The last time I checked, I don't know anyone who qualifies for those tax cuts! (Except for maybe Mitt) We need someone who will take care of our countries poor, those who are impoverished. We need someone who will care about those in our country (and other countries) who are starving, whose children go to bed hungry. If we can't even care for our poor and homeless, that is a pretty sorry comment about us as a society.
There are multiple references in scriptures about caring for those in need (ie Exodus 23:11, Deuteronomy 15:7, Proverbs 17:5, Alma 1:27) It is irritating for me to hear many people that I know look down on those who are less fortunate than they are. It's not that my family is so poor that we can't provide for our family, we do alright. But I was not raised with a lot of money, and I am so grateful for that. It allows me to have compassion for those who are in need.
I think Barrack represents those of us across the nation who are middle class. Those of us who work hard to make our money. The son of a single mother, he grew up poor and has compassion for those who are in need!

Anyways...I am done ranting for tonight!!!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Wow, well my goal was to blog a minimum of once a month....looks like I just missed February! I have decided to use this site to post my stand on many of the issues that I feel strongly about. (seeing how most of my friends and family just roll their eyes and ignore me, lol) Watch for some of my work coming in the next couple of days. The month is already speeding by...I can't believe my baby is almost a year old. It is really amazing to me! We will have two birthdays soon, Jonah will turn one at the end of March and Logan will be three in the middle of April.